- the state of feeling bored."I'll die of boredom if I live that long"
Synonyms: weariness, ennui, lack of enthusiasm, lack of interest, lack of concern, apathy, uninterestedness, unconcern, languor, sluggishness, accidie, malaise, world- weariness;
I don't quite think theres anything more frustrating than boredom; making a cup of tea then realising you have no milk, fake tanning before a night out then noticing its pouring with rain, getting to the check out after queuing for a half an hour and finding you've left your purse at home. All of these things come close, but are never quite as dreadful as sitting, twiddling your thumbs, hoping for some sort of fairy godmother to appear with a one way ticket out of bored town.
The mind numbing feeling of boredom itself is enough to send anyone insane if they obtain it for too long, however thats not the worst of it. Boredom usually comes with its two ugly sisters, guilt and over thinking.
Guilt often shows up first. You begin to compare your life to those in third world countries and feel horrific that the sheer notion of boredom even exists to you, with a plethora of things to do, see or learn about, yet theres never any incentive to do anything. We have too much privilege, freedom and knowledge to ever experience boredom, yet at least once a day, I, just like many others, will find myself endlessly scrolling through tumblr, watching old episodes of new girl or eating the contents of my cupboards out of sheer lack of enthusiasm or interest in anything.
Then over thinking appears and so begins the never ending train of thoughts. Questioning yourself, friendships, relationships, career choices, anything and everything until you either exhaust yourself into falling asleep or crying, in my case its usually both.
Up until a lecture I attended last week I always saw boredom as such a negative and ungrateful thing to acquire. Being bored was never something I cared to admit, in fear of being branded with the phrase "only boring people get bored". Until it was brought to my attention boredom is simply the desire for desires, an appetite for something new and interesting to come along. It has nothing to do your lack of charisma, drive, intelligence or wit. Its quite frankly rather exciting, boredom is the beginning of adventure, that first step to making the decision to change, the starting point for ideas, the door that leads to wherever you want to go. Without boredom everyone would be too busy to know themselves or what they're doing. Everything has to start somewhere and for the first time ever I think boredom seems like the best place.